Questions

Ever try to figure out why...ever wonder why prayers seem to take so long before an answer is received...ever try to figure out why you life took the path it did and if everything is in God's hands, why did He choose to allow the things He did? You're not alone. In a place now where all I can do is ask why...not mad...not bitter...a little confused...and just wanting answers. Being strong for everybody else is great until you need someone to be strong for you. Most of the people that depend on your strength don't even know how to be there for you  and in most cases, really have no clue how to handle situations when the roles are reversed. On top of all of that, the one power that you can call on decides to take a silent role. The thing is, so many are in the same spot but can't express these emotions because of fear or because they must remain strong at all times. Something that's taught at a young age when you're a pastors child. You never let people see what's really going on. At this point in life when I'm fighting so many different battles, fatigue is definitely trying to take a place in thoughts. What do you do when you know giving up is not an option, but that's all you want to do? I hope that nobody reading this is waiting for an answer because I don't have it...lol. I guess doing this helps me feel better and gives my mind the release it needs. In everything, I will continue to give thanks and I definitely won't stop until I've released my last breath. Maybe I'll find the answers...maybe I won't. Either way, life will continue to go on...